I’ve always wanted to keep a steady blog so that I can practice non-business and non-chatroom writing, and share interesting things, but I’ve never been able to actually get going. I brainstormed recently about why that is and came up with a much longer list than I expected.

I don’t have solutions to most of my problems, but I did find the range from frivolous to deep very interesting.

• nothing to say
• worry too much what others will think
• don’t want crappy stuff out there
• scared it’ll be bad
• scared it’ll be good
• too personal to share
• what I think and feel changes, don’t want old things people find to be seen as representing me in the future
  • I have some of that from the past already and I fret about it frequently
• lazy
• afraid
• want to do it anonymously, but people would only actually like it because there is a real person they know writing it
• don’t know what kinds of things I want to write: essays, journal entries, career related stuff, personal things, short stories, weird silly things, photos, etc.
• nobody will care; writing into the void
• but also, don’t want people to care, that’s too much pressure
• don’t want praise for crap because people are just being supportive
• people I write about will know it’s them
• already neglecting so much, it’d just be yet another thing I’m doing poorly
• it’ll never be as good as others’ stuff
• it’ll be misinterpreted
• if successful it’d paralyze me more because I don’t want to disappoint
• it’ll be too fake
• it’ll be too real
• it won’t be funny
• it won’t be funny enough
• it won’t be clever
• only willing to put out well-defined and well-edited work
• don’t want sloppy writing or ideas out there
• too scared to publish my incomplete ideas
  • really those all mean I’m too scared to grow and learn in public, which is fine, but writing causes growth
• too wide a variety of topics I’d want to write about that no one would want to actually follow me
• I think I need people to follow me
• too busy
• my blog isn’t setup just right so I need to work on that instead
• meh, I don’t really care
• what I have to say has already been said by others, and better than I can
• too afraid to actually say how I feel about topics so it’s just bland instead of actually me
• too scared to cover social justice topics and those are what really matter
• don’t believe I have anything valuable to say
• believe I have to write things that are actually valuable
• don’t like to show my silliness in public for some reason

I’ll probably add to this as I think of new ones because I think it’ll be funny to add to it each time I want to write but don’t for some reason.